Emotions Emotions Emotions!

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Created on Thursday, 20 October 2011 23:21

Written by Condarion

No posts in September? There's an app a reason for this.

Truth be told, it was a very emotional month, in several ways. And while there have been achievements on the way, there have also been things which - in a sense - are losses or will turn into losses in the near future.

Good things first, I am very proud that I was able to do my first public lecture on a gaming based topic. Back in my home town of Hagen (which I usually don't mention for a reason), the German-Greek Society has invited me to hold a lecture about Greek mythology in video games, and I happily accepted. The lecture itself was well-received, and despite the fact that a) there will always be somebody to doubtfully ask how you expect to earn money with that, and b) there will always be somebody to use the k-word*, I was well prepared for that, and I think I did a really good job. I'm looking forward to do this again some time in the future.

On the unpleasant side of things, I also paid my grandparents a visit. My grandfather has been in the hospital for several weeks, and now he's back home. Unfortunately, he will be a nursing case for the rest of his life. He can hardly hear anything, his eye sight is down to a mere 10% capacity, and three times a day a nursing service will look after him. Not to mention he's always had a somewhat difficult personality, and these traits are now taking over. In short, he's no longer the man he used to be. It's a sad sight to witness.

And that's not even the worst part. On my trip back to Berlin I took an unusual detour: My aunt has been diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer recently, and doctors were giving her a few weeks at best. So I decided to pay her a last visit. I felt it was a must because her twin sister died several years ago, and about two months before that, I was visiting her without expecting a sudden death. So at least I got a chance to say goodbye this time. It felt really odd and debilitating. Moreso because I've thought of words beforehand to say, and yet I couldn't express most of them. Anyway, I felt it was necessary, and farewells are never easy.

But October is coming up, and so is the next college project. So let's see what we'll come up with this time. There are already some great ideas around, they just need some polishing before we can start pre-production.

* "killer games"